2009 : : January 6, 2009

written and directed by deeflores at 06:58 AM in Personal.

Thanks for the warm leather-ly welcome 2009. =)

I don't have resolutions ... yet. I decided to give up on the new years resolution on eating right and losing excess weight because when I become conscious of what I eat... the more I gain weight. ODD! So none of that. I have never tried to read more books because I want to be happy with what I do. LOL. I fall asleep trying to read, though I do love picture books. Hmm... I tried doing more artwork... but I don't have the right materials and equipments. I don't want to spend money on that yet because I don't have any room for them at the moment.

I could always work on my praying habits. (Or lack-there-of -_-')

The reason I don't want to make resolutions is that I can already feel that 2009 is going to be a long and hectic year. Long because I can't wait for 2010 so I can have my own room, and hard because its time for me to save my academic life. But nothing my God can't handle so I shouldn't be afraid.

There's one thing I want to happen but I don't want to promise because I AM SUPER SCARED and I am going to admit this... I have no confidence in my work. I want to do what I love... but I feel like I'm not good enough to do it. Which is why I worked in a toy store instead of designing. When it comes to my work, I'm quite sensitive about it which is why not everyone sees it. (Some are hidden under my bed, LOL) I want to do good. I want to be great at this. I want to explore... but I don't like risks... but I know that I'm going to HAVE to take it if I really want to be amazing.

WAHHH!!! Why didn't I want to be practical than be passionate? BOO!

I need to practice. I really do. This is one skill I don't want God taking away from me. The same creativity that created the universe.. I share a little bit of that and I want to keep it. SO PLEASE! Anyone who needs me to do something... I will do it as long as its web or print. I can't design products yet simply because I suck at it. HAHA! I'm going to start a client notebook. Don't worry.. I won't charge anything until I feel like I'm good enough to charge. HAHA! (Yabang!)

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Homework : : January 3, 2009

written and directed by yahn at 11:51 PM in Book Of The Yahn as a favorite post.

Wala na ngang pasok, pero may assignment pa rin. Pambihirang buhay naman 'to.

Nung isang araw pa ako binubulabog ng tanong na ito. Ngayon naman, tatay ko na mismo ang nagtatanong sa akin kung anong plano ko sa aking buhay. At kailangan ko pa itong gawing pormal at isulat ng detalyado para sa kanya! Sabi ko nga sa kanya: I can only see as far as three months. Ang range pa man din ng aming assignment ni ate [oo, pati sya ay damay--dapat si mama na rin eh :D] ay limang taon. Duh! Ang tagal no'n ah. Ewan ko lang, pero para sa'kin napakalawak na ng ganung pagpaplano.

 Sa simbahan pa lang tinanong ko na si God, nung pasko ata yun kung di ako nagkakamali. Napagtanto ko kasing marami na palang nagbago sa'king buhay--sobrang dami na! May pagka-urong-sulong kung baga ang naging takbo na ng buhay ko. Nadaanan ko na, babalikan pa. Tapos syempre matatapos na rin ang taon. Ito na nga, dumating na ang 2009, wala pa rin akong maisagot na matino sa mind-boggling question: ANO NANG MANGYAYARI SA BUHAY KO? Ano na nga bang plano ko sa buhay ko?

Hindi na ko magbabalik-tanaw pa. Parang nung isang araw naisulat ko na yun, di ba? Pasintabi, may nakalimutan pala akong pansinin sa pagbabalik-tanaw ko ng Nobyembre nang nakaraang taon. Napakarami kong pagmumuni-muning ginawa ng mga panahong iyon. Walang kwenta, puro kalokohan. Kung ano-ano pang napagtanto ko at nabalikan ko, eh isa lang naman pinatunguhan ng lahat. The bottomline is: I'm depressed. Hindi ko matakasan ang katotohanang bumagsak ako. Masyado akong malungkot at nagsisi sa katotohanang iyon. Nagpasukan na at lahat, maaga akong nagising at pumasok sa una kong klase--my second first day in that class. How ironic. Tinatawanan ko lang sa harap ng madla, pero sa loob-loob ko ang bigat, yun na siguro ang tipong matatawag kong worst feeling in the world.

Magulo na maayos ang nakaraang taon para sa akin. Marami sa mga nahiling ko ang natupad, ang mga habits na ninais kong makasanayan ay natupad rin naman. Maayos dahil nga sa dami na rin ng pagpaplanong ginawa ko. Maayos dahil sa naisipan kong ayusin ang buhay ko even to the smallest detail. Pero magulo rin dahil sa mga setbacks na tinatawag, sa mga 'di inaasahang pangyayaring nakaapekto ng malaki sa nauna nang naplano. Ang tinutukoy ko'y mga pangyayaring taliwas pa nga sa iniisip ko.

Ayan, napamuni-muni na naman ako. Nagbalik-tanaw ng mga nangyari na. Nakakasawa na kasi. Just makes you feel how much older you really are. Kamusta naman ang ganung pakiramdam 'di ba? Ang dami na rin palang nangyari. Marami pa nga kayang pwedeng mangyari? Paminsan paulit-ulit rin lang naman ang kwento ng buhay. Iba't-ibang tao, iba't-ibang sitwasyon--pero sa huli magkakapareho rin lang ng damdamin, saloobin at kalutasan. Buhay nga naman, parang gulong lang, paulit-ulit lang rin.

Sige, balikan natin ang orihinal na tanong. Ano na nga bang mangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon? Komento nga sa'kin minsan, masaya naman maging spontaneous at magpadala lang sa agos ng pagbabago.; pero syempre mas makakabuti pa rin ang pagpapaplano nang sa gayon makita kung saan ang patutunguhan. Yun rin lang naman ang punto ng aking ama sa pinapagawa nya sa amin eh: ang malaman ang patutunguhan namin. Eh, ano na nga bang gusto kong patunguhan ng buhay ko?

Payo nga sa'kin ni ninang, always come up with plan B. Dapat laging may back up plan. Hindi nga naman kasi lahat ng plano ay masusunod, dahil sa simpleng dahilan na hindi naman talaga tayo ang may kontrol sa mga bagay. Diyos lamang ang nakakagawa nun--ang magplano at maisakatuparan ang mga iyon. Napagtanto ko na rin ito dati at ngayon namalayan kong ganito na nga mismo ang ginawa ko. Nung una hindi ko pa ito naisip gawin--yun plan B kasing naisip ko nun eh sa totoo lang di ko rin naman inasahan na maisasakatuparan, kaya kinalimutan ko rin agad. Pero sa pangalawang pagkakataon, naitama ko na mali ko at hinanda na ang sarili ko sa masaklap na katotohanan.

Plano, plano, plano. Ano nang plano? Ano pang pwedeng maiplano sa buhay na ito? Ano pang pwedeng mangyari? Ano ba talagang gusto ko sa huli? Ano nang direksyon ang tatahakin ko? Ano na ba talagang mangyayari sa'kin ngayon?

Dating scene. Ayun na. Ang matagal-tagal ko na ring iniindang aspeto ng buhay ko. Katarayan ko nga rin naman kasi. Pero sa kabilang banda, may mga dumating rin namang pagkakataon ah. Hindi ko alam kung bakit tinalikuran ko ang mga pagkakataong ito--wala akong maibigay na konkretong dahilan maliban sa prangka kong sagot na ayaw ko. Ayoko lang talaga--tapos. Ngayon haharapin ko na sya at 'di na magpapaligoy-ligoy pa. Panahon ko na nga kaya? Kailangan ko na kayang gumawa ng paraan, maghintay pa rin, o ano? Yun na nga kaya ang hinahanap kong pagbabago--ang gumawa ng paraan kaysa maghintay gaya ng dati?

Hindi naman talaga ito ang balak kong talakayin sa sulating ito. Pero paano naman kaya kung ito talaga yun naiisip kong planuhin para sa sarili ko sa taong ito? Kamusta na lang sa ipapasa kong homework sa ama ko, aba!

Aha! Alam ko na. Sabi nga ng kaibigan ko, you lose yourself in a relationship. Para kasing iba yun daily routines kapag may nobyo, iba rin kapag wala. Mabuti na lang single ako last year: I was able to focus on honing my time management skills. Natuto akong magplano, plano, plano--tapos masanay sa magagandang habits.

Kaya naman sa taong ito, napagdesisyunan kong ipagpatuloy ang mga habits ko last year, magdagdag pa at isakatuparan na for real yun mga nabasura nang nakaraang taon. Ang mahirap kasi sa one time, big time goals eh madali ko silang pagsawaan--madaling magbago isip ko. Minsan pag andyan na yun pagkakataon, mabibigla na lang ako na ginusto ko pala ang mga ganung bagay, at sa huli ay tatalikuran ko rin naman kasi hindi ko ito lubusang ginusto... ni wala man lang sense of fulfillment. Kaya naman ako naging spontaneous--masaya na ako sa anumang dumating sa buhay ko.

Ganun na nga ang gagawin ko: pagplanuhan pang maigi ang mga maaasahan, at hayaan na lamang dumating ang tinaguriang life's little surprises. At kasama na siguro dun ang pag-ibig, kaibigan, pati na mga inuman.

Sa susunod ko na lamang idedetalye ang tinutukoy ko. Maraming salamat, kahit paano'y naliwanagan ako. Ngayon alam ko na mga mangyayari pang susunod. ^-^

Mama Mia by Abba is running through my head
I'm really really accomplished

oh come on..

It was a cool change, but no smooth transition. : : January 1, 2009

written and directed by yahn at 09:32 PM in Book Of The Yahn.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

But before moving forward, the tradition is looking back first--reflecting on how the year has been, how much has changed. I'd simply compare and contrast the what should have against the what has been. Let's start!

JANUARY

I recall vivdly having so much hope, thirsting wildly for God and a life that is directed to him. Well, I'm not implying that the good life is just living up to man's expectations of godliness. In the beginning, I admit to having been so much inspired to serve God in all aspect. But, being an utterly adaptable person, things changed for me towards the end. I would rather recount them later, at the proper timing. For now, I just remember all those faith goals and sincere intentions. They aren't wasted. I just didn't realize where they have disappeared to.

Last year, I was able to reminisce without the aid of past posts and even photos. That was 2007, when past posts or even photos weren't really much of a help. I just remember having a good memory of that year for me. But for 2008, I don't get to do that. My mind is clouded by the memory of the past two weeks of vacation. Not that 2007 was a lot lovelier for me to remember so well. It's just that, things changed so fast I didn't realize it. There's just a lot that happened.

FEBRUARY

Moving on. By the second month, I was able to persistently keep up with the quiet time routine. A great accomplishment for me! I was an obsessive-compulsive then, trying to keep things in control. A smooth-flowing month for me, I'd say, keeping up with a tight and hectic schedule, finding time to still have fun with different crowds, and nourishing the faith. I was juggling my schedule, and eventually getting used and good at it. Time management--finally.

But by the end of the month, a big change startled me. Whoa, now being an officer has never been part of my plans. What on earth happened? Goes to show that it really isn't me in control, but God alone. Now some plans had to be reviewed.

MARCH

Browsing through my blog to refresh my memory of the month's events, I came across this quote that had me giggle crazily to myself.

AUBREY: Try falling in love with someone you never initially liked. It's fun.

And I just happen to think: how about falling for someone you initially hated? How much worse could that be!

Anyway, I also recall in this month successfully heading an event. Well, not exactly heading, but organizing it. And there's just two of us, then! Big accomplishment for me, I'd say, and it made much difference in my life. I loved it!

On that month as well I had another bad case of hangover. That didn't really stop me from drinking, but it did teach me a lot about the crowd I hang around with. And it's all a matter of choice. I recall so well drinking so much, not sleeping, and still having the guts to meet up with someone. Thankfully, that breakfast went well, and now I'd say we still catch up with one another. Then again, whatever. XD

APRIL

My soul-searching month. First time to spend vacation studying rather than skinny-dipping in different beaches. I get to laugh again with another confession made.

Bakit tuwing 2nd semester ako naghahanap ng relasyon?

Funny how I should say that. And then now realize that it's the second semester of classes. I have no idea what I'm up to in this life.

Quite a highlight of the month is my improved driving after a year. I almost gave up learning, but God and even my father didn't give up on me. Eventually, I have managed to drive on a regular basis every weekend. I even get to practice now around LB, and initially in highways.

MAY

Would you believe this is the first summer I never stepped foot in a sand-filled beach? I didn't really realize I missed out on a lot of summer stuffs. Anyway, real beach fun started Septermber instead. More details later.

As I come closer half the year through, I see how much love-filled 2008 has been for me. It's just about everywhere, more than ever. It was only then that I have considered the bigger picture and pondered a little more on the subject. I guess it's good to think of it while it still isn't around. Well I do hope it helps me prepare for the real thing. Soon, I'd say.

Then there were those many lessons learned. Or rather relearned. Truths about relationships, the art of accumulating knowledge, purposeful living. Where are they now?

Going back to the aforementioned month, it showed me that the passion was still there, even after a few lapse of judgment. Now I wonder, when was the fire extinguished?

JUNE

Now I'm a junior student! Two more years and I'll be graduating. What a relief for me.

I still see the consistency, the persistency in time management. Good. Where did it go eventually? Did it really go away, anyway?

I am reminded of the term quarter life. I'm almost actually there. And indeed, this life is all about being more than just doing. Not exactly being by what I do, rather having my choices mold my character, my personality.

JULY

I find myself smiling once more, having realized much I've really waited this time that I would be part of that engineering academic org that my close friends are part of. It wasl July, more than five months away, but the plan has been already planted in my heart to join them the following sem. Amazing--all I could utter.

I read also in my blog how much I have enjoyed my time in gimiks--bonding with people and strengthening relationships. People really do matter--and I've just applied the real lessons in actual.

AUGUST

Now I see where it all starts--when. In August, I was in a brink of despair. Though today, I don't really remember much of it. I just recall being very stressfully busy with all our activities, and actually heading activities. I'd say successfully, but could have been better. Anyway, those were depressing days. And as I've known for myself, I easily forget the 'down' times. I could be so down low for a time, but I let it all pass.

Funny how easily I have forgotten the failures, but get to smile upon recalling the good times. I am such an optimist.

SEPTEMBER

A highlight of the month is having that aforementioned beach trip in the middle of the semester. Fun bonding with the brods and sisses! Felt the pressure all the more. But loved the people much more! It's good to recall these good times--and simply consider these very memories in the brink of regret.

OCTOBER

The lowest point of my year. An unexpected big shift in my life. October 2008 is a time I often go back to. It is the very moment that I bluntly ask myself and all else the big question WHAT IF? And now I wouldn't really dare start asking this question. New year, time to actually move on!

NOVEMBER

A pretty slow month for me. I don't really recall lots of activities, gimiks, or work. I just remember waiting impatiently--taking my time to spend the few weeks I have with fellow heroes and brods and sisses relaxing and having a good time. Come December, the fulfillment of my plans.

DECEMBER

A roller-coaster ride. Enough said.

So this has been 2008 for me. And what of those goals of mine? Let me have just a run down. And having been running out of time, I'll consider posting 2009 plans over the weekend.

• glorify God with my excellent works
• blog more frequently but write shorter posts
• reserve about 1-3 hours of my time every week for updates on sites/email accounts that I manage: blog, sorority, forums, organization, e-groups, mail, and Multiply
• exercise in the morning
• set aside at least an hour everyday for quiet time with the Lord in prayer and bible-reading, including reading of The Daily Bread
• limit my alcohol intake in a month
• condition myself to sleep early and rise early
• drive the car
• eat healthily
• use an organizer to hopefully organize my life
• return to Youth for Christ
• enjoy every moment that I am single--no more hunting and looking out for me
• read a novel every night
• play in the piano and memorize a certain song/piece
• earn money and deposit my earnings in my BPI account
• buy/make birthday presents for friends
• buy/make presents for my parents for all occasions
• excel in my academics
• ritually pray every morning and night
• finish my unfinished 2005 scrap book
• give Christmas gifts to everyone
• remember names and take the initiative to greet and smile at familiar faces when I recognize them
• write down ALL my goals and aspirations
• give my financial tithes to the church and actual tithes to God
• pray and fast with the church every month
• constantly pray and lift up all my concerns to God
• cook different meals
• remember, think, thank, and write to God
• organize and plan ahead by writing down EVERYTHING
• list down and keep my promises to Papa, Ate and Ninang
• live the Lambdan life, and make myself and everyone else proud
• prioritize well, and then make wise decisions based on God's word, other's opinion, priorities, and gut feeling
• organize my finances: income, expenses, accounts payable, and accounts receivables
• disciple
• recruit
• memorize bible verses
• perform excellently my duties and responsibilities to the organizations I have committed myself into
• show my love to loved ones
• keep my faith in God, and love Him even more through obedience
• do so much more than these
• LIVE

See, the explanation here is that the ones in underline are actully *checked* ones--fulfilled, but continuing. I have just noticed how indeed much of these are habits to be developed, and not merely one-time big-time goals to be accomplished. And then those striked are ones that I don't really intend to get done any longer. I'd say don't ask. And still those untouched, without any text decoration, are habits still hanging, and I am adding perhaps to this year's 'resolutions' or rather faith goals. I may have failed them, but I consider hanging on still to them.

Change, change. What more could happen in 2009?

Toodles for now! [^-^]

PS: Another thing I've noticed this year is that it's been a lit-inspired year. Creative juices just flowed naturally out of me in to this blog. And I didn't notice that I have managed to come up with more than three poems last year. Wow for me, I'd say. I'm not really that poetic, believe me.

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Stories : : December 31, 2008

written and directed by yahn at 03:02 PM in Book Of The Yahn.

I've been musing more than a week ago about how fast the year is ending, that once again I'd have to write down a sort of 'review' for the year that has passed. But then, right now it isn't about me not in the mood to recall or what. I actually am remembering a lot of things lately! Except that, I recall a lot not about this whole year, but more of this month... more of this encounter of mine.

I never thought I could tell stories this much to someone. Just about anything goes whenever I talk to him. I always thought he would be just another face in the crowd that I'd always judge based on what I know he did--the very little fact in his life that I knew. I told myself I wouldn't listen to him, I wouldn't really want to know and that I have nothing to do with whatever he says. And eventually, I found myself denying him my trust.

Bottomline is: I'm all wrong. Though I wouldn't really consider him a friend, all I could call of him is 'someone I once talked to.' And it suits him right--my perfect description for him.

Anyway, that was over. New year's here. Time to go back to silly routines and get on with life. I'm just thankful he passed by. I'm just wishing now my memory won't fail me and allow me to remember vividly some day without regret or pain.

Well, I'm here not really to talk about him, but simply write. And still not about him, rather about stories of my past week. Plain tell stories... the way I'd tell them to him. Like anything goes!

On Christmas day, we went to Batangas as usual. Our first stop was in our aunt's newly built mansion in Talisay. It is brand new, but it is beautiful already. There was no entertainment, except perhaps for the small TV with the DVD player and a couple of imported DVDs. My sister and I are wondering how my aunt and uncle and all their household could last such a boring house without much entertainment, even sofas for cozying up and keeping them comfortable. Then again, I guess they're always out anyway on appointments with different people. After all they're here for only a short while, barely two weeks.

Next stop was Nasugbu, home sweet home. Played with more than a dozen kids and gave away stuffs to keep them happy. No unlimited texting for me on that day. Thank goodness, you might say. I simply enjoyed the food and company of the noisy children. Add to that the satisfaction I got from the videoke. Too bad I didn't get the chance to sing my currently favored song, Only When I Sleep by The Corrs. It's been running in my head since like the semestral break.

Now the 26th was a pretty boring day. Can't even remember what I did. Well, I do remember somehow telling myself that I need a new layout for my blog. Until now I haven't started on a new one. Lazy!

The 27th was an expensive day. I went to the great grand Mall of Asia, hailed as the largest mall in the whole world. Met with my new family, orgmates in engineering. Had so much fun taking blooper snapshots around the mall and getting to know orgmates that I have perceived mistakenly. Even enjoyed time scoring a hundred in the videoke and playing fantastic games in the arcade. Though it was one of the most expensive activities we did, besides eating--which really wasn't as much expensive. Well, the most expensive would have been watching Tanging Ina Ninyong Lahat, which was a sure box office hit. I admit I've been satisfied enough with the funny but striking lines Ina spoke. I may as well share it at the end of this post. At the end of the day, we amused ourselves with the anticipated fireworks display. And just before taking off and calling it a day, I happen to come across three people I know from LB. Small world, isn't it?

28th was a bum, but time well spent. Paid back the sleepness nights I owed myself during reporting at the start of the month. And then I have decided to go back to the texting world.

By the 29th... well, all of a sudden I don't remember! I just recall having some serious talk with this guy that I usually share funny comments with. Surprised me to find him opening up and sharing his story with me.

Then again, that was in the morning, like 3 AM. When I woke up at 10, a greeting sent shivers up and down my spine. And the rest of the day has been filled with stories--anything under the sun! And that's how I happen to spend that text-filled, bum, happy day.

Yesterday, 30th, was shopping day. Bought new clothes for the new year, and shoes, as well as accessories, plus added a nice, big bag in my collection. But best of all, I finally got myself a copy of The Emperor's Club. Yay! Dad and I watched it last night and we both loved the inspiration it brought forth. I've been looking for it since like the first time I saw it, and now I get the chance to watch it over and over again. ^-^

I'm really supposed to post now the review and read back the good ol' entries. Yesterday I've been doing some reading, except that I've been reading text messages. It's over now, I could let them go and erase them all tonight. *sigh* I honestly intend to look back on the year it has been, but only to find myself lingering too much on the past 30 days. Or more like 10 days.

Anyway, I'll post another one later and do flood somehow this blog of mine. I hope I won't get too distracted. [x_x]

Ang lahat ng problema may solusyon. Kung walang solusyon, wag nang problemahin. ~Ina Montecillo

Love Actually is blocking my sight
I'm really really chipper

oh come on..

Yay!! : : December 26, 2008

written and directed by deeflores at 02:50 PM in Personal.

I've been planning to get this ever since I got my Canon Powershot A560 (Flashy) last year. BUT whenever I remember to get one... I've got insufficient funds. Now that I have upgraded to A2000 (Betty) I couldn't wait to get this:

It's an SD card reader. It also came with an extra 2GB SD cards. *dances around* Now I don't have to connect the camera to the computer. I can just plug this in on my USB and it'll read the card. (Wee! More reason to love my old yet still working so beautifully Macbook! LOL) I cannot wait!!! 

Oh dear, I'm such a geek. Also, I apologize for the picture. =S Had bad lighting and I was tired from the family-PARTAY! lol!

 

THANK YOU MY MUNITA! (Ate Jeline) <3<3<3 I love LOVE LOOOVVVEE it!!

The older I get, the less presents I receive... but the more I appreciate my family. This year, I totally forgot about the gift giving actually. I just love them being around. =)

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It's Christmas Once Again : : December 25, 2008

written and directed by gdwn at 09:20 PM in The Life of Gdwn.

And I've been spending it like a usual rest day for years. Not exactly by choice... pero basta. It has (almost) always been like this during my birthdays and even when new years come. Good thing that I love myself enough to make days like this a bit special.

I pledged not to let any drama get to me, but Jer started it on me yesterday pa. He called up his mom last night, only for his call to be greeted by voicemail:

 

"Napatalumpati tuloy ako nang bengga. Like i miss you i love you crap. Biglang nag-tingle ang voice ko at nag on cue ang tears."

I was in a cab on my way home when I got his message. My tears automatically went on cue upon reading that. Biglang nag-montage sa isip ko lahat ng namimiss ko. Drama anthology of all sorts. Eh alam nyo naman ako, I instinctively hold back my tears no matter how hard it is and no matter how painful it can get. So until this Christmas day, may-I-drama pa rin ako. So here I am, blogging about it, in a way na alam kong hindi rin naman lahat kayo nakakarelate sa sinusulat ko. Nakakafrustrate tuloy na napaka-unreadable nitong entryng ito. Just had to let this out. Ngayon na nga lang ako ulit nag-update, downer pa! Totally not top model.

Anyway, one deep sigh lang naman ang katapat ng lahat ng ito.

Toodles.

Entertain yourselves with this na lang.

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Bliss : : December 25, 2008

written and directed by yahn at 02:54 AM in The Letters, Book Of The Yahn.

Yuletide Season Prayer

Dear Lord,

I thank thee for the gifts--the material ones, the love, the family, and most especially the salvation you've freely given to all. Your seer today did remind me well of two things: your love and your presence.

Indeed, I do have a lot to be grateful for. First is for the gifts received this year. Love them! Second is the whole year that has passed--I survived! Plus all those memories that made me feel all sorts of emotion. And then of course your loving mercy keeping me intact and hopeful. You deserve more than thanksgiving, praise and glory.

Well, you already know that one wish of mine. But, as I've said this evening, I'm very much willing to wait--all for you. I accept whatever you have in store for me, for you know and give best to your children. Anything to fulfill your purposes, Lord.

I'll keep in touch, Lord. I swear. I love you.

I Don't Remember

I can't recall what he looked like
I can't even recall how long his hair was
I can't remember the pitch of his voice
I can't remember the way he spoke
I don't remember anything physical about him at all.

But I do remember how much he hated Eleven Minutes by Coelho
I do remember the way he aced the EE 11 finals
I recall so well the foul words he kept on using
I recall vividly how he predicted that he would marry a friend some day
I remember the excruciating four-hour conversation.

I had no intention of listening in the first place
I never thought I'd be here anyway!
I have every reason to forget it all
Yet still, by the end of the day, at the back of my mind...
I remember.

For God so loved the world
He gave us his only son
Jesus Christ our saviour
His most precious one

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Philippines? : : December 24, 2008

written and directed by deeflores at 10:02 AM in Personal.

Hmmm...

Philippines

Montreal =)

 

She's getting married! I don't want to miss that at all.

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